Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Laboring in My Father’s Vineyard

Robert Mondavi Vineyard, Sabbatical 2010

The title might make you think that this is my latest devotional, and that is exactly what it started out to be; but then I got caught up in telling a story so the devotional will have to wait for another day.  If it is spiritual food you are looking for you will have to look elsewhere or come back for a later post.

I grew up in the wine district of western New York.   In every direction of our home you could not drive far before passing a commercial vineyard.  The only connection that we had to any of them, was one of my mother’s brothers who worked long hours and many years tending a large vineyard where the grapes were used to produce altar wines.  So, when my father decided to devote five acres of his land to a vineyard, no one batted an eye.  

The first winter after that decision was made, my father and I spent many weekends deep in a woods that belonged to one of his friends, cutting locust trees to be used for the posts to hold the wire that the grapes would grow on.  I remember that winter clearly.  The snows were heavy, which made even walking among the trees laborious.  While dad felled the trees I would clear the branches into piles away from the work site.  One of the first things, we did when we arrived was to build a fire where we would sit on stumps to rest and warm ourselves throughout the day.  There was something special about that winter, working next to dad.  I had him all to myself.  He was never a teacher in the formal sense of the word.  I never remember him telling me, “Son, this is how you use an ax.”  Or, “this is how you build a fire in the middle of winter to keep warm.”  He would just do these things and I would learn through observing him.  By the end of that winter I had taken over the task of starting the fire, but I was still too young to use the ax.  That would come years later for me.

I wish I knew how many trees we cut and trimmed that winter; but my father was undaunted.  Despite the fact that he knew that in the spring he would have to cut them into 8’ lengths, split them using a maul and wedges, and then haul them all back to our property – he kept cutting.  He somehow knew how many he needed.  When he had enough he hired a friend to haul them back to our farm.  Once they were on site, each required a hole to be dug in the rocky New York soil which was the main reason it was grape country.  Thankfully I was too young for the task of digging the holes; but without any hesitation my father began the arduous task of planting a post every ten feet in long parallel rows eight feet apart.  I don’t know how many rows we had, but the work was never ending.  Grapes are not like seasonal crops such as wheat or oats where you prepare the soil, plant the seeds and then sit back and let them mature until they are harvested.    Once a vine is planted, one is committing to tend that vine for the rest of its life if it is to be fruitful.  Actually the planting was the easiest part.  Once they were in the ground the ongoing task of weed control began.  In time each vine needed to be trained to grow on the wires.  They really took to that.  In no time, we had row after row of leafy vines growing everywhere.  Within a few years and every Fall thereafter, we had more than enough grapes for our own use and every hobby vintner for miles around. 

My father had been given a large wine press by an elderly woman who with her husband had raised their family of nine from the sale of bootlegged wine during the Prohibition.  This meant that dad had to dismantle the press hidden in the basement of her barn.  The vat was about six feet in diameter with an eight inch solid steel screw in the center that was buried in four feet of solid concrete.  To this screw a plate was threaded that would be screwed down against the grapes using a twelve foot pole.  To say the least it was a pretty impressive piece of equipment that was reconstructed in our wine shed.   Thus began my father’s annual homage to the god Bacchus.  Every fall and winter our house was filled with the smell of about three hundred gallons of wine fermenting in our basement.  My father’s wine was legendary in our small rural community.  Everybody loved receiving bottles of wine as gifts.  In fact I remember clearly every winter after the first heavy snow, my mother would wait patiently in the kitchen window for the county plow to come down the road.  As they passed the house she would raise a couple of bottles of wine and wave them to the two men in the cab.  They knew immediately what she was offering.  They would promptly raise the plow, back up to the beginning of our long driveway and plow it out with the county truck.  When they reached the garage, my mother would run outside with the bottles of wine and hand them up to the men through the window.  This ploy worked every time and was repeated as needed throughout the winter.  Wine became the way we bartered in the community.

Someone has said that it was madness that possessed my father to take on the task of planting a vineyard.  After reading this story, I too can see the reasons for the comment.  But having lived with him and possessing many of those same qualities that drove him to create a vineyard with his own hands, I understand that beyond the work there was a great feeling of satisfaction.  I can only imagine how he must have felt on those evenings when he would sit back in front of his fireplace and sip a glass of his wine.  For him it must have been priceless.  

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Spiritual Formation


therefore the Lord God sent him forth from the garden of Eden, to till the ground from which he was taken.  He drove out the man; and at the east of the garden of Eden he placed the cherubim, and a sword flaming and turning to guard the way to the tree of life. 
Genesis 3:23-24

For years this verse and an image of it haunted my memory.    As an adult I began to question where this image in my mind had come from.  Why was it so clear?  I could see an angel with a flaming sword driving Adam and Eve, cowering in shame and guilt, from the garden.  Was it a famous painting that I had viewed somewhere in a museum?   Was it a plate that I remembered from an art book that I had read?  Whenever I remembered the verse, I always felt the pain of loss that Adam and Eve must have felt as they were being driven from their home, the garden, where they had walked with God. 

They heard the sound of the Lord God walking in the garden at the time of the evening breeze and the man and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God among the trees. 
Genesis 3:8

Although there was no definitive proof that God was in a habit of visiting Adam and Eve to share an evening walk with them, I could not accept that the Lord God, who had created them in his own image and loved them, would have first come to them after they had sinned.  So I could feel their loss.  The pain – as the consequences of their sin crashed down around them.  How desolate they must have felt as they looked over their shoulders to see the gates to the garden close behind them.  My view of sin and all its ramifications were formed around these verses and this image in my mind.  To have God seek us out to take an evening walk suggests closeness, and fellowship.  I always liked to imagine that this happened often, perhaps daily at the time of the evening breeze.  But this time, this time, they hid themselves.  Oh the pain, the shame, the terrible loss they felt.  The terrible loss of intimacy with God.  Sinner that I am, I know that feeling.  I know it all too well. 

But, thanks be to God, we know the rest of the story.  

For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, 
so that everyone who believes in him may not perish but may have eternal life.  
Indeed, God did not send the Son into the world to condemn the world, 
but in order that the world might be saved through him.  
John 3:16-17  

And may I add, walk with God once more in the cool of the evening.  Indeed, thanks be to God.

How central this image has been for my faith formation, and yet I could not place it.  Then in 1998, I walked into my home church following my father’s casket for his memorial service.  It had been a long time since I had walked through those doors.  I had come here almost daily with my parents to worship God, until after eighth grade when I left to begin my seminary training in a Franciscan monastery.  As the procession stopped just inside the doors to the nave, and the priest encircled my father’s casket with incense, my eyes followed the rising smoke and I looked out into the church of my youth, past all the people who had come to say good by to my father and there I gazed at the pew on the right side aisle, two rows from the front, where I had worshiped so many times with my family.  It was our place to encounter God.  As these memories came flooding back, my tear filled eyes looked up above that pew where I had knelt so many times, and there in the wall was a glorious stained glass window – the image that I knew so well.  How could I have forgotten where I had seen it.  



As a young boy I must have sat there for hours gazing at it.  It is no wonder I knew that verse so well.  I knew at a young age what the cost of sin was -- that it alienated us from God.  A God that desires to be in a loving relationship with me.  A God that comes again and again looking for me.  A God that in the end sent His Son to live and die for me.  To live and show me how to live.  And to die to open once more the gates to the garden so that I can once more walk with an all merciful, forgiving and loving God in the cool of the evening for all eternity.  




Wednesday, February 13, 2013

What a way to start the day ...



Momento, homo, quia pulvis es,
et in pulverem reverteris

Remember, human, that you are dust,
And to dust you will return.

This morning of all mornings I read the following.  It has left me with a lot to ponder. 

Whoever on the medieval day
decided that it had to be ashes
to sign the season, was in touch with death
but he’d forgotten the place of red earth,
remembered in the gut by those who know
dirt mixed with the blood of woman giving birth.

The flesh of one so full of hope cries out,
comes pushing now the growing, wintered well
in her womb, wailing songs of the longing
for life and love and gentleness of green
and a springtime sun to be welcoming
for us, to warm us out of these our tombs
to bid us light and peace and graciousness.

So we are signed with earth – with death and birth.
                                                                                                    Mary Claire van Orsdal

Lent then can be a time of new beginnings,  new birth, renewed efforts, throwing off shackles, closer walks with the Lord.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Carnival




On this Shrove Tuesday, the last day of Carnival, my spiritual readings pointed to the conundrum of life here in the Kingdom as I prepare for my 40 days in the wilderness with our Lord.  I think that both need pondering and a balance sought.

First we hear from the book of Wisdom  -

Come, therefore, let us enjoy the good things that exist, and make use of the creation to the full as in youth.  Let us take our fill of costly wine and perfumes, and let no flower of spring pass us by.  Let us crown ourselves with rosebuds before they wither.  Let none of us fail to share in our revelry; because this is our portion, and this our lot.  Wisdom 2.6-9

And then St. Paul cautions us -

You were taught to put away your former way of life, your old self, corrupt and deluded by its lusts, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to clothe yourselves with the new self, created according to the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.  Ephesians 4.22-24

I am reminded immediately of Proverbs 1 and 2 where we encounter both sides of this issue.  We hear from Lady Wisdom who speaks to us and warns us away from the "adventuress, "  Lady Folly, whose house sinks down to death and her paths to the shades.  Rather, Lady Wisdom offers us silver and hidden treasures.  She builds up her house, while Lady Folly tears her house down with her own hands.  Each attempts to entice us on a different path.  Lady Wisdom to the path of life and Lady folly to the path of destruction.

So my path into the wilderness this year begins with a fork in the road.  Which path will I take?  

Friday, February 1, 2013

The Transformation of a Chicken Coop


In my last entry, I mentioned in passing that I was transforming my chicken coop into an art studio.  This raised a lot of questions with some people.  Those who knew me for the last three years knew that I was an avid backyard chicken farmer.  They knew that I took great delight in sharing fresh eggs from my flock of 15 white Brahma chickens with family, friends and neighbors.  Having been raised in the country, being a chicken farmer seemed like a reasonable endeavor, and with members of my family slowly becoming vegetarians, a source for ‘farm fresh’ eggs was a real plus.

First day in their new run

When it came time to provide my flock with a domicile, I had a brilliant idea. One of my long time dreams after retirement was to build an art studio modeled after the Japanese Teahouse that is at the Botanical Garden in Wilmington, NC.  More than 15 years ago, I had spent an entire day making detailed drawings and taking 100’s of pictures of the teahouse.  I knew that somehow, sometime, somewhere, I would build a replica.  In the ensuing years, the teahouse became a central feature to a much larger landscape design of our front lawn.  The plan all along was to use the teahouse as an art studio.  This then became the inspiration for my chicken coop.  I would build a smaller version, one that would fit within city guidelines for unattached buildings.  This would also allow me to learn some of the building techniques, like wood joinery, that my teahouse required.  It also satisfied my wife’s one requirement for a chicken coop, which was that it had to be “beautiful” if it was going to be in her backyard.  It was that – beautiful.  It was in fact, not a coop at all.  It was a chicken palace.  Without even knowing it my chickens would be living in the most beautiful chicken coop in the entire city of Raleigh, no … the entire state.  But, they never appreciated it.  

The Chicken Coop / Palace

Within ten days of retirement, I was sitting across from a city building inspector with drawings of the tea house/art studio, and the master landscape drawings of my front lawn.  I had all the forms filled out.  I had an electrician and a contractor to dig the foundation all lined up.  The city inspector was impressed with the entire project, but … a permit was denied because “sheds” were NOT permitted in front lawns.  I tried to argue my point that it was not a shed, but she would not budge.
To say the least, I went home entirely defeated.  What was I going to do about an art studio?  The backyard was not big enough for both a chicken coop and a studio.  I pondered this dilemma for several days.  One evening, while sitting out back enjoying a glass of wine, I looked up at my gorgeous chicken palace and I lusted in my heart for it to be an art studio.  Within minutes I had declared eminent domain on my poor, oblivious chickens.  Their time with me was drawing to a close.  Through a mutual friend, my wife made contact with a chicken farmer down in Greenville, NC.  My chickens soon had a new home.  In fact, they are probably much happier living their lives as chickens on a REAL farm.   They had never really adapted to life in a palace where the landowner required them to clean up after themselves and make their beds every day.  

Welcome to my Art Studio